― Anne Lamott, Operating Instructions: A Journal of My Son’s First Year

anne always puts it best. how very very very true this is. i thought i had my rage and insanity under control, a toddler and an infant have proved me terribly wrong. strangely, this is good news. perfection isn’t the goal. good enough is the goal. love is the goal. seeing the real me, the broken me, gives me a better idea of what i’m working with, of who my children are living with and loving. i don’t have to be the person i think my children need me to be. i can only be the person i am, working towards love, towards patience, towards self-control.